it’s difficult to be human.

to know that you can see the flaws and the hypocrisy so easily in someone’s life… i mean it’s literally out there for the world to see. and yet the instant you notice it, your very own big red flags, mistakes, and mess ups come flashing across the screen of your mind like previews in a movie.

All I have to say is that I am astounded at how blind I am, and how beautiful my Savior is.

he sees my everything. he made me. he sees when i slap him in the face and nail him to the cross with my sin.

but because of grace alone I can see and be reminded of that moment thousands of years ago when every ounce of my shame, guilt, condemnation and sin was taken from me forever.

not just me, but for every person on this planet.

but it’s a daily choice as to whether or not i receive it.

no matter how far i run, Jesus will always be right beside me because He knows that I have a void only he can fill.

Happy Easter.

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let me warn you that this post is about Jesus and about you.

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My family did not get in ONE argument today. We seriously just woke up at a nice time (11:00) had delicious brunch, opened presents, and enjoyed each other’s company.

I received money, an awesome spongebob blanket, the new coldplay CD, and other little fun things like chocolate and socks.

I don’t even care about the stuff I got. It’s nice, but I’m seriously overwhelmed at the overall feeling of happiness in my household.

I don’t need anything; I have everything. I have more than most people in this world have. A roof, food, family, safety, provision, I have everything I need.

It’s only because of Jesus. We have peace because of Him.

I’m overwhelmed.

Thank you, Jesus. 

“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.”

I just have to keep remembering to come back to Jesus at the end of the day. through every knife in my brain and no matter how many directions I’m being pulled by 100 people.

Jesus takes my hurt, my stress, and my heart and he gives them rest and peace and everything I’ve ever needed.

and you all should follow her 

yourloveisdeep.tumblr.com

cuz she’s super awesome!

she goes by LPCC sometimes too

missmagicmorgan:

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.”

just what I needed to hear.

(via missmagicmorgan-deactivated2011)

if it’s not one thing it’s another

caught up in words,

tangled in lies..

You are a Savior

and you take brokenness aside

and make it beautiful.

Okay! So since I have a few minutes before I go to bed, I figure that I’d let you all know how my internship is going so far! it’s only been 3 weeks but it’s AMAZING.

(@hollylyon you asked a few weeks ago so this is mainly for you my dear :))

Basics: I’m in a 9 month program at my church called Ministry Training Institute. The main focus is to not only learn the Bible better, but to grow closer to God and really understand who He is, His character, and also who He has made you to be as an individual.

There are around 20 of us. About half of us are from the home church while there are some from southern california, two from Brazil and a few from various other California places…and one guy from Oregon. haha

Daily Schedule

Sunday: 8am, arrive at church to pray for the three services in the morning. Right now we’re simply making our “presence” known but in a few weeks we will all be “assigned” an area of ministry in which we will serve…like kids church, nursery, media, worship team, etc. It’s awesome. Sundays are kind of long because we don’t leave until 1pm ish but it’s worth it. Since I have had the blessing of serving on the worship team for a while, I get to do that sometimes already. Since my church also has a campus is Napa, I get to go there sometimes too and serve. I love it.

Monday:We have this day off as our “sabbath” because we serve on sundays. I usually get all of the homework I possibly can done on this day along with some extra prayer and bible time to myself.

Tuesdays:-Starts off with the gym at 6 am. Gotta stay fit! Then, class starts at 815am. We begin the day with worship and prayer for about a half an hour and we have three classes per day. Tuesdays classes include Old & New Testament Survey, Doctrine, and uhm…I’m blanking right now. I’ll update this later when I have my schedule in front of me.

Then, after our classes we get to go to Markham Elementary school! We play with the kids during recess and help out with their PE program. In a few weeks, we’ll even be their music program which I am personally helping to teach! I am so excited to help these little ones learn about music and to make them sing cute Christmas songs haha.

After markham, we get lunch for like.456 seconds and go to the Vacaville Storehouse. it’s a ministry from my church that provides basic necessities for families in need in my community. It’s absolutely amazing to see how many people are in such need in such a suburban town like mine.

After The storehouse I go home and study, because I’m still enrolled in school online.

Wednesday: The only difference about Wednesday is that We have Gen.Life at 7pm!!! it’s the youth ministry at my church. About 500 students show up and it’s always a great time seeing them meet with God.

Thursday: Again, the only difference in Thursday fr me is that at 6pm we have Corporate Prayer. Our church gets together to simply pray for our city, our church, church members, etc. Love it.

Friday: Same thing!

Saturday: If there’s not a conference going on that weekend, we don’t have to go anything on Saturdays except for Adopt-a-block. It’s in the morning, and what we do is simple but it’s awesome. A team of us go to under resourced neighborhoods in our community and we simply ask them what they need. We build relationships with them and just do what Jesus would do: love on them. One thing that our intern “leader” said that really stuck with me was “These people are no different than you and I. They just have different situations.”

So, that’s my week. Somehow in there I manage to fit time to do things like this and to collect my thoughts. I am loving every minute of it, even though it’s an exhausting schedule. I already see myself changing and I can already see the direction God is taking me. I learn more about Jesus every day. I know this is where I’m supposed to be at this time in my life and it feels beautiful.

not going to lie, as of right now I’m kind of stressed out about the details….like how I’m going to pay for the rest of it and how I’m going to handle school and a social life.

but, alas…my God always comes through for me. always. because he is amazingly loving and kind and I am his and He is mine.

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